..After Almost 2 Years..

..How Time Flies..

So what can I say the past 16 months have been really really mental;

• Moving in with my Mum
• Partying like a bitch
• When I went 'missing'
• Leaving Primark
• Living in Bradford
• Back to Leeds
• The Hostel
• Mums again
• The Flat
• Now

..Moving In With My Mum..

After moving out of the house, I went to live with my real mum again, I was there for 6 months.. sleeping on a mattress on the floor in the attic.
We did okay, and didn't have too many arguments (that I can remember)
I got close to my family again and now I have the most amazing relationship with my older Brother Tony.. I only wish now we could have had this our whole lives, but I'm not complaining he is an amazing Big Brother.

..Partying Like A Bitch..

Yeah, that is pretty much all I did while I lived with my mum.. It included a hospital stay as I was very bad one night and took too many illegal things and had a seizure but I've learned my lesson and my Mum will never let me forget it.

..When I Went Missing..

So I didn't actually go missing, I caught 'swine flu' and had to take a week off work.
I was feeling better one day and decided to go stay with my friend Troy in Bradford, the day after it was pay day and all day my mum phoned me asking me to go home so she could have some money.
When I got home we had a huge argument and she kicked me out.
A few days later I went back to pick up some clothes and see how she was, I told her I might come down again that week; things got kind of hectic at Troy's one night and I lost my phone.
Without the internet and no phone I had no way of contacting anyone.
On the Sunday I found my phone (under the sofa) after turning it on I had like 50 messages from my friends asking where I was and if I was okay.

My mum had phoned the police and my sister had been on my facebook and posted a status asking if anyone had seen me.
There was also a facebook group haha.
It was pretty crazy telling everyone that I wasn't actually dead.

..Leaving Primark..

After too long I finally went mental and had a bit of a breakdown on the shop floor; after being sent home I couldn't face going back in.
So I might tell everyone I left I didn't I got fired for not handing in my notice which I have no problem in admitting how stupid that was but I was in a pretty bad place at the time.

..Living In Bradford..

My time at Troy's is a bit of a blur, I didn't enjoy it too much and I did too many things that no-one will ever find out about.
I was at his for 3 months before everything got too much and I had to call my mum once again to come pick me up.

..Back To Leeds..

Being back in Leeds was amazing, I had really missed being at my mums.. but now I was jobless and homeless.
I managed to get on JSA which I hate and still hate now but it means I can get a job that I actually want to do.
My Grandma also died last November which didn't affect me too much, mainly because I hadn't seen her for years.. I did get to see the rest of my family again at the funeral though which was rather nice even though the circumstances weren't so nice.

..The Hostel..

This has to be the most interesting part of 2009, moving into Oakdale House;
It's an all girls hostel, it was so awful.. the people there were not like me at all.

..Kelly
An 'ex' junkie, a shoplifter, an alcoholic and a cancer sufferer

..Nisha
The Weed Fiend

Can't actually remember anyone else's names as I tried to talk to everyone else as little as possible.
During my 3 months at the hostel, I got 2 warnings for having boys in and one for not paying my bills on time.
Kelly used to take me shoplifting with her which wasn't at all fun but she did get me some pretty clothes.
I spent Christmas at my mums with the whole family, I had the most amazing Christmas.. It was so much better than 2008.

..Mums Again..

I got offered my flat at the beginning of 2010, after viewing and accepting it all I had to do was wait for the keys (it took a little over a month to get the keys)
At this point I'd gotten so sick of the Hostel I was staying with my mum more and more often.
The day I went to get my keys, the housing man told me it wasn't ready so I would have to wait longer.. I'd already moved everything from the hostel to my mums ready to move it to the flat because it was closer.
About a month later I finally got the keys, the very same day my Granddad saw a cockroach running around the living room, then we noticed more and more.
I freaked out and refused to move in until it was sorted, 3 months later, after a lot of complaints they were gone.
The only problem I had now was I had kind of spent all my furniture money on things I didn't really need.
After my Birthday in June.. my cousin came to my mums with a puppy called Princess she said she couldn't look after it herself as she was fighting for her Children and living with her mum.
In the end I took the dog because I fell in love with her and she would be great company for me when I moved.

..The Flat..

I finally moved into my flat, it was undecorated and awful but I loved the freedom of being on my own and able to do anything I wanted, the first few nights I stayed there with Princess I never slept. I was so scared something was going to happen.
In August I got a loan and all the money went on getting my living room decorated which is now almost finished.

..Now..

I'm loving my flat and Princess has gotten so much bigger, my cousin has got her kids back but her mum kicked her out so she and her 3 children are staying with me for now and over Christmas.
It can be a little crazy but I love it.
I think all I need now is a great job as a nursery assistant or a care assistant and I'll be sorted..

..End..

Another Update..

Tomorrow I am moving and shall be without the internet for a while.. It is sad times.
But I have decided to upload the full Maria and Chris story.

Enjoy!!

The Many Adventures...

Since falling out with Maria and Chris they have been nothing but a pain, constantly in my face and just being absolutely rude. Bitching about me over facebook and to my friends.
While Playing The Sims, an idea hit me and it was a great way to let go of some of my frustration.
I would like to present.. The Many Adventures Of Maria And Chris

Click image for full size..

..2009..

..The Beginning Of Something New..

2009 is here, and I intend to make this year better than the last, not that 2008 was a bad year, December was an awful month but I can actually say it’s behind me now and things have started to look up.

..When I Won A Phone..

I entered a competition on Coke Zone to win a Samsung Tocco and would you believe I actually won? It hasn’t arrived yet but I’m hoping to get it soon.
The Man I spoke to said it could take up to 28 days to arrive.

..Bye Bye 2008..

New Years Eve was amazing, I had my house party that had been planned for months, plus I was allowed back into Mission.
I got to see in 2009 with the people that had made my 2008 so amazing.
I cannot wait to make this year just as great.

The party was a huge success, I know this because the house was trashed the next morning and people had decided to write all over the walls in white board marker, luckily my house mates haven’t been too bothered and it came off really easily.

Me and Chris officially ended our friendship on this night as well which was very sad but I really am over it, looking back over our whole friendship I realised he was never a good friend and never there when I needed him.
I just can’t believe he said he would be civil to me when he sees me out; I got a certain sense of satisfaction when I blanked him last night. Childish I know, but if you don’t want me as a friend don’t pretend for other people.

All in all it was a fantastic night.

..First Night Out Of 2009..

This year has already brought new experiences to my life, seeing as I am no longer banned from Mission I had to attend the first one of this year.
It was seriously one of the best nights; I made loads of new friends and got to see some old ones.
I tried Absinthe for the first time, I was the single most foul thing I’ve ever drank aha.

My friend Abbs lost his phone though which was quite sad… He was so upset, bless!

..Family Situations..

I wanted to start seeing my real mum again because I have actually missed seeing her and my siblings so I decided to go up on Sunday and surprise her.

It’s funny how people miss you when they don’t see you and then wish you would leave when they do!
I must have been there less than an hour before we were pretty much screaming at each other.
Still I shall keep going, I want to try and form some sort of half normal relationship with my mother.

I did love seeing my younger Brothers and Sisters though.

..Plan Of Action..

I really want to sort my life out this year; I think it’s about time.
Sadly for me I’m so impatient and I know things won’t change over night and that I will have to work really hard to achieve my goals.
I think if I push myself I can do something about it and have an amazing 2009.

..Goals..

• Find a new place to live
• Get a better job (full time)
• Look into Uni (Ask friends for advice)
• Have many more nights out
• Go to Norwich a few times

I think that will be enough to get me through the year.. I’ll maybe add to it once I complete something or think of something else.


Oh and..
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

..It's here..

Happy Christmas everyone. :)
x

..Choices..

So about five months ago I had to make the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make, I had to choose between starting a new life 200 miles away from where I live now or staying with no money and no-where to live but I get to have all my friends and job, I decided to stay and moved in with one of my best friends.
For the first few months it was amazing and I would just go out all the time, I love the freedom and feeling that my life was finally 100% mine.

The past month has been hell for me, I’ve been feeling so homesick, I miss my step mum and younger sister like crazy (I pretty much brought my sister up so my parents could work).
I decided to deal with this feeling by going out even more, getting more and more drunk every time and making a fool out of myself.
Now it seems like my friends don’t want to spend time with me, I’ve not been out drinking for 2 weeks, but yesterday I found out my step mum doesn’t want me to visit over the holidays as everyone is really busy with work.
Now I feel so incredibly down and my friends are no where to be seen as they spend most nights out drinking.

I hate the fact I have to spend Christmas alone, I hate it even more I just want someone I care about to be there for me, like I have for them so many times.

I’m thinking I made the wrong choice when I decided to stay, would I have been happier with my family? I don’t even know anymore.

..What Is?..

Something I made and wanted to share with everyone.. :)